16th Oct 2009

Cloudy

The weather seems to understand the emotions that we feel.
Confusion. Fear. Sadness. Anxieties.Hope.
All mixed together into one seemingly emotions that we could not describe but feel.

But even to feel, we didnt know which is which...
for the feeling seems to have correlate with each other....
perhaps we should consider to surrender
perhaps we should consider to stay strong...instead of getting weak upon hearing it.
But how are we to become immune when we never know what is going to happen?
when what's going to happen is always so unexpected...and threatening....

Maybe we should really pray altogether...
maybe we should really shout...shout to the Lord
saying: God help us! Please help us!
there's so many things we didn't know but please help us.
if we can't do much, well at least to depend on You.
To rely on You
and to go too far away from our faith.

Please help us!

Mini Cooper

Anybody wants to buy this sweet car for me? hehehe just for a rough information lol
I saw this car and took a picture of it when I was walking around Ion Orchard, where it all comes together haha
and I was so happy to see so many different coopers that I keep taking piture of it...Unfortunately, when they exhibit some other version of the Cooper, due to the crowd, I was unable to take a picture of it...but well, haha just take note ya, this is my second favorite car besides Lamborghini hahaha

Ohhhh speaking of Lamborghini, last Fri or perhaps Sat, anyway, it was one of those free day of mine, keke...I was walking around Orchard Road again, I can't remember exactly where perhaps around Robinsons there, ya, so there I was standing, waiting for the traffic light to turn red and for the green man sign to appear...suddenly, zooooooommmmmmmmmm

ouhhhhh BABY!!! a beautiful sound indeed... the damn car drove past me and I was like (wahhhhhhh) damn enchanted by the way it drove off so smoothly with such a smooth beautiful sound not too high not too low, and most importantly not too noisy to be heard! hahaha I hate noisy cars....lol

Well, anyway, hope that I can have one of those coops one day as well as hehe and if I have it, I think I will want to put it red/ yellow or maybe baby blue with white strips at the front? hehe then the whole car appearance will look like the colorful color in Speed Racer HAHAHA HAPPY!!!! or maybe put it in some colors will also be sexy! lol lol

Anyway, happy today because I have no school =)))) and ya so far for these 2 days, the days had been good.. =)

Though I'm still lazy if I am to self-intro myself lol lol
and the idea of starting a convo still thrills me
hehe I'm a shy person...though I know most people will not agree with this. haha
but really, I'm shy when it comes to first impression and first conversation. haha

Well, got to go...take care now...
bye bye then

Cheers,
Yuliana

Second Day of school...

I'm beginning to miss everyone now...
everyone from A-Z especially now that I am sitting alone, somewhat 'outcast' in the class that is yet to be mine.
So bored with no one to talk to...and with strangers circling about me....
haiz...
why the hell do we need to be separated all the time?
what's wrong with sticking together till the end?

I'm so lazy to make friend...
So lazy to keep saying "my name is Yuliana"
(keh...) bosen bosen....

How i wish Christmas is here soon...
gee...it's seems so long ago since the last time I write the Christmas Cards...hehe
hopefully this year there will be friends for me to share the joy with...
I mean (duh) of course right? but well hopefully the number of cards to be mailed does not decreased with the number of cards sent last year. =p (tho it means 'pengeluaran bakal lebih banyak =p )

Anyways how I wish that Christmas is here...then another and then...
I will be free...huahaha at least for some time from school, works, and I will be spending the day and the night tucking myself to sleep under the warm cover as I dreamed of the dream I longed to dream of....hehehe

How I wish this morning could last longer...
kehkeh...the idea of sleeping under the warm cover as the rain pours away...
kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa so homey....so sweet....so dreamy...huahahaha welcome to my world...
I wonder how it will be like to sleep under the blanket when it's snowing outside...
hehehee...

anyway...got to go...

take care now...bye bye then...

peace,
Yuliana

Golden fish

It was swimming in the pond at the back of Raffles Hospital when I saw it
almost as if glisttening in the middle of the pond as it sways itself beautifully from one place to another...
For a moment I was so amazed that I stopped and stared.

This is the first time I am so so so so damn amazed with a fish...
a Koi fish...
my devilish side even crept in between me and let my imagination ran wild..haha
I was pretending what is I stole this fish away? hahaha
anyway, it seems for that split second, before the evil thought came to me, the fish seems to adore me just as much...hahaha you know why? it swam it way to me when I took a closer look at it.
Or maybe, the fish, is just as narcist as I am hahaha knowing that I am so amazed by it, and wanted to take a picture of it, haha it just swam its way gracefully for me to capture it as much as possible...show off its beautiful golden tail somemore...(haha not bad fishy...you look great)

ehhh you know what, the moment the other fishes saw that we were taking picture, the others came to join...wooh buffeting their way in...and another beauty, the one with the white color, who was just as gorgeous swam closer haha..thus I took a few more pictures of it, before I went off and that golden fish, proud as he is being the boss and the most outstanding one in the pond, swam away again with that graceful swift.... wooh...sexy!!!!

I really love the fish very very much...damn beautiful...
and this is the first time I dont feel dumb for mesmerising a fish...haa

Now i know how count D feel lol lol

Describe You with Songs

"But They Told Me
A Man Should Be Faithful
And Walk When Not Able
And Fight Till The End
But I'm Only Human"

It took me sometime before I was able to write this to you...
well you know what, I was listening to your song the other nights
and this words from your song "Will you be there" struck me to the core of my head that I wonder...
if only they know this and realized this earlier...especially the last 4 words that shows reality...
perhaps...

Well, whatever it is...I hope that you are feeling much much better up there...

Love you man...

Love,
me

Thank you

It was such a great news to hear that he had opened his eyes last night...
The joy was so great that nothing can compare how beautiful it feels.
The importance of survival...
the wonder of knowing that someone is alive...after such a long journey.
It was BRILLIANT!!!!

Thank You so much God for hearing all our prayers and eased the fear...
Thank you so much to know that he is at last awaken...
and thank you so much for all the nights we spent visiting and talking, reducing the ice between us...bonding us....

and thank you so much for friends who are there to care and to share...

thank you people for all your concern once again and for all the prayers you had said out that was being raised to heaven and helped in making the miracle comes true.

Thank you
Thank you
Thank you =)

peace,
Me, moondreamer

Feeling

Numb.
Confuse.
Petrified.
Speechless.

I don't know what to say...
I can't sleep right now...not when he has only 2 days...
I wondered is fear making me numb...
or does faith keep me calm?

I wonder what will happen tomorrow...
I wonder what will become tomorrow...

God...maybe I am being a self reliant bastards right now...
but could you please allow me to surrender to you?
Please keep us all at ease...
please keep us firm and strong...
Please keep him safe for us God...

We know you are there and we know you can do something about it...
but we also know You have your own timing...thus, please keep us firmly grounded to the faith that we carry deep within us.
Help us God to continue praying without fail...
Help us God to hang on to the faith and hope we have in our mind.
Help us to carry the burden we are never intended to carry, but had unfortunately load it with us and now, we are feeling so weary...
help us to pray again...
help me God to pray again and to make sure that I don't give up the slightest hope...

Please keep him safe for us God.
Now is not the time to blame any one...
Now is not the time to curse anyone even if I wish I could curse them all...but it don't matter now...
I wonder if they even felt guilty about it?
I wonder if they even felt the need to change and upgrade themselves?

I wonder...if You could really bring him out of his misery?
or rather, if he could really bring himself out of that misery?
I wonder why...why God why is life so delicate that it just breaks the moment it looses its "self control"

I know you can do it God...only You can be the one who does it.
So please bring him back and please surround him with the holy spirit and keep him safe from harm.

May you call upon the angels of the Lord to engulf his life with Your healing power

Please heal him God...please heal him...

Please...