The phrase "dog eat dog world" is not something that I have never heard before. Unfortunately, I guess this year, this time was the time when I really experienced what it meant by "dog eat dog world" and just as mentioned and just as it is being descript, it's not a good thing to be involved in such situation.

What a shame to admit that just as it seems I was beginning to step into the real world, I am beginning to feel like I wanted to back away. Perhaps the churn is just too hard and crazily cruel that I dont feel like taking the ride again.

The whole grouping thing, and the whole honesty just turning me into something I am not.

I hate that.

Despite of the fact that I know truths hurts, but it is even more hurtful when it is being spoken out.

My heart has not been leaping with joy ever since the project is over...I wonder why...

it should be a shout of celebration, but I dont find anything to be joyful at all.

I dont fucking enjoy this "I'm done" thing knowing that the next is about to come, and the same shit may occurred once again...

I guess I may have to agree that being individualistic is at times better.

Well...what can be done now...everything's been out, be it they want to believe it or not. Everything's laid out be it perfect, or not. Everything's over...like what everyone had said, be it I like it or not.

Guess one thing that I've learn from this dog eat dog world thingy is: though it may not easy to be good samaritan...

but I guess being a big bad moron is not as easy too.

Maybe this is all because we are just ordinary people.

Travis

Hulalala....

see this beautiful tattoo made by Aelvin from Imagine tattoo on someone's arm...

Can you believe it!

The portrayed just looks so real....

Trav must be glad that someone could draw his face so well on someone else's skin. =)

It was a biggy suprise to have found Travis's picture in his album.

The mess in my house before it was slowly built up =)

A TOTAL BEAUTIFUL MESS...CREATED BY ONE POWERFUL PERSON....

THE CONTRACTOR!

Look! A sand mountain.

Piggy Rules

A few days ago, after getting sick of all the hussle and buzzle of my busy life,
I decided to walk down the busy road of Toa Payoh and end myself up in the
National Library.
Hahaha...not a very good choice, but since its been a long time since the last time I set my eyes on some fictional books, I decided to take a look.

As always, whenever I feel stressed out in life, I find my solace through reading children's story books. And to my surprise...hehe I managed to find some nice children story books with pigs as the lead character.
I dont know why they chose it to be pig, but pig that's it!
The piggy Rules!!!!
and they are really cute when being drawn as an illustration in children's story book.

The first book I found was a book entitled "Freddy goes to Northpole" and the second one is a book called "Beryl's, a pig Tale" haha both books are adorable...and both books make me smile...
so at the end of the day, I decided to have them...

-________________________- I dont know when will I be able to read it...

but I really hope that I could read it.
I am starting to read about Freddy as he decided to make a tour agency for all the animals in the farm and I think the concept is really interesting. Especially for a book which was created in 1926!
It was brilliant!

The other book, on the other hand, was left untouch temporarily because I have to make a balance between my leisure read and my serious read.

I really really really trully very very very much wish that i can immediately have my upcoming August Holiday... gotta tanks the big event YOG for conducting it in RP. huhuu!!!!
I really really been in a lot of business for the past few weeks.
Really feel like getting harder and harder to breathe.

Today, I was late for my piano lesson because I slept at 5 in the morning after talking about some life thingy with my sister. It was very irritating to play piano when you are sleepy, because the eyes kept on twitching. As a result, the notes are all over the place, and the tune is all over the place as well.

IRRITANT!!!!

I really wish that I can spend more time playing the piano...
it makes me happy when I play the piano.
Earlier on, I was playing Liubestreum (A Dream Of Love) by one of my favourite composer, Listz, and I was so so so happy although it was the simplified version.
But still to have the pleasure to play Listz, it was a great honour.

Then again, a few hours ago, precisely about 2/3 hours ago, I just saw this beautiful piano in white at Kawai music school at Paragon. I never know there was a music school in Paragon...
maybe its time to explore...anyway, it was so beautiful...
and though the price was also beautiful...unfortunately it was sold out...
haiz....
how I had imagined myself playing it in my new house...

Yeah! talking about house.
On Saturday, I went to my new house which is still under construction.
It was NICE!
I LOVE IT!
The four ceiling was brilliantly done, the painting was satisfactory and the whole mess that was beginning to take in the shape of a house, was wonderful.

I REALLY CANT WAIT TO GET IN THERE!!!!
WUAHHHH!!! SEEMS LIKE A NEW BEGINNING....

Somehow, I'm really glad that, despite of all the nasty things that may be revolving around me at the present time, like say, school projects, school rjs, etc. etc. but in between those business, there is always something that makes it happy, and make me to forget about it for a little while.
For e.g.
1. The birth of my new born cousin. It was a long waiting one, and we are all so overjoyed when he was born. It's kinda funny to get crazy over baby stuffs at my present age, but it was just so fun!
2. The appearance of the house that was on the process. although at times it was slow and all, but at the end of the day, it gaves us a good feeling everytime we go in there.
3. To find out on books with pigs to rule the characters above all the other animals. (kinda hilarious)

and many many more...

And I was glad that sooner or later, or hopefully sooner, I hope, it will all be gone.
For a moment just go away, and just fly...you know I mean, all these busy lifestyle, anxieties, bla bla bla bla...and leave me alone for a moment...
Before I have to strive it again...

Anyway, gotta go...
very very tired...
have been having a bad headache all these while...I dont know why.. maybe is the lack of sleep, maybe is the moody thing...
whatever it is, I just wish to have a good night sleep tonight...

Tk Cr bb

Old Love

It's been a while since I saw your moves and I hear your voice.
For a while I thought I have forgotten everything about you...
It was so strange the day I decided to find out about you one more time and to my greatest surprise, unlike the past, it is easier to get track on to you...and though it may seems so long ago, and the feeling may had faded with time; however I think it all comes back to me...all at once the moment I see and hear the same things that I had been listening and seeing few years back.

Thinking back the time when I...got to let you go for a short period of time
it seems so...saddening...very very heart-breaking...
if only they know how much you means to me...
the move, the groove...
all that never brings a disaster to me...
in fact it was all a beautiful thing that made me smile every single day...

Even today when I was moving towards the rhymn of your songs it made me happy...
And I was so damn grateful that I was able to continue that moved that was once part of me... =)
And with the vidoes flooding more frequently now...
I was able to get more clear vision about how it is done...

Feels so good to have find you again...in times when the world seems so hard for me to bear at times...
If only we grow together...
But its okay too...
at least to find out about you in the middle of what seemsso sickening to feel...
and too tiring to do...it just feels so damn great!!!!

How I wish right now...I will be having the right amount of time to spend with you...
and to spend that really precious time to master it...
Give me a chance...let me do it once again...without giving u up anymore this time...
for the boundaries had been broken...
I've set myself free from the fear that was once haunting me....
And with passion, this time, I will do it again...

Toast...for a better tomorrow...
And for the practice that needs to be done....
freak...not gonna be easy... =)

Anyway, Nice to meet you....