Golden fish

It was swimming in the pond at the back of Raffles Hospital when I saw it
almost as if glisttening in the middle of the pond as it sways itself beautifully from one place to another...
For a moment I was so amazed that I stopped and stared.

This is the first time I am so so so so damn amazed with a fish...
a Koi fish...
my devilish side even crept in between me and let my imagination ran wild..haha
I was pretending what is I stole this fish away? hahaha
anyway, it seems for that split second, before the evil thought came to me, the fish seems to adore me just as much...hahaha you know why? it swam it way to me when I took a closer look at it.
Or maybe, the fish, is just as narcist as I am hahaha knowing that I am so amazed by it, and wanted to take a picture of it, haha it just swam its way gracefully for me to capture it as much as possible...show off its beautiful golden tail somemore...(haha not bad fishy...you look great)

ehhh you know what, the moment the other fishes saw that we were taking picture, the others came to join...wooh buffeting their way in...and another beauty, the one with the white color, who was just as gorgeous swam closer haha..thus I took a few more pictures of it, before I went off and that golden fish, proud as he is being the boss and the most outstanding one in the pond, swam away again with that graceful swift.... wooh...sexy!!!!

I really love the fish very very much...damn beautiful...
and this is the first time I dont feel dumb for mesmerising a fish...haa

Now i know how count D feel lol lol

Describe You with Songs

"But They Told Me
A Man Should Be Faithful
And Walk When Not Able
And Fight Till The End
But I'm Only Human"

It took me sometime before I was able to write this to you...
well you know what, I was listening to your song the other nights
and this words from your song "Will you be there" struck me to the core of my head that I wonder...
if only they know this and realized this earlier...especially the last 4 words that shows reality...
perhaps...

Well, whatever it is...I hope that you are feeling much much better up there...

Love you man...

Love,
me

Thank you

It was such a great news to hear that he had opened his eyes last night...
The joy was so great that nothing can compare how beautiful it feels.
The importance of survival...
the wonder of knowing that someone is alive...after such a long journey.
It was BRILLIANT!!!!

Thank You so much God for hearing all our prayers and eased the fear...
Thank you so much to know that he is at last awaken...
and thank you so much for all the nights we spent visiting and talking, reducing the ice between us...bonding us....

and thank you so much for friends who are there to care and to share...

thank you people for all your concern once again and for all the prayers you had said out that was being raised to heaven and helped in making the miracle comes true.

Thank you
Thank you
Thank you =)

peace,
Me, moondreamer

Feeling

Numb.
Confuse.
Petrified.
Speechless.

I don't know what to say...
I can't sleep right now...not when he has only 2 days...
I wondered is fear making me numb...
or does faith keep me calm?

I wonder what will happen tomorrow...
I wonder what will become tomorrow...

God...maybe I am being a self reliant bastards right now...
but could you please allow me to surrender to you?
Please keep us all at ease...
please keep us firm and strong...
Please keep him safe for us God...

We know you are there and we know you can do something about it...
but we also know You have your own timing...thus, please keep us firmly grounded to the faith that we carry deep within us.
Help us God to continue praying without fail...
Help us God to hang on to the faith and hope we have in our mind.
Help us to carry the burden we are never intended to carry, but had unfortunately load it with us and now, we are feeling so weary...
help us to pray again...
help me God to pray again and to make sure that I don't give up the slightest hope...

Please keep him safe for us God.
Now is not the time to blame any one...
Now is not the time to curse anyone even if I wish I could curse them all...but it don't matter now...
I wonder if they even felt guilty about it?
I wonder if they even felt the need to change and upgrade themselves?

I wonder...if You could really bring him out of his misery?
or rather, if he could really bring himself out of that misery?
I wonder why...why God why is life so delicate that it just breaks the moment it looses its "self control"

I know you can do it God...only You can be the one who does it.
So please bring him back and please surround him with the holy spirit and keep him safe from harm.

May you call upon the angels of the Lord to engulf his life with Your healing power

Please heal him God...please heal him...

Please...

Can you hear me...
if your soul was there can you hear me? as I pray for you? and we pray for you?
you have to pull it through...please pull it through...
as we pray and we pray for you to wake up...please don't give up...
Please...don't give up...

Balloons

Another year past and another life has come to life.
But nothing could have ever replace you from our heart.
Nothing could ever erase away the painful memories...the day we lost you...
Like balloons your soul flies up softly and gently...with the wind as a guide...bringing you up above the sky and into the kingdom of Heaven.
Like a balloon you fly purely and slowly...as He waited for your arrival

After some time life seems to go back normally the way it always seems to be
But deep within our heart, nothing seems to be the same as before.
It seems as though some part of us leaves with you the day we said our final goodbye...

I wonder...how I really wonder...
how long it takes till we meet again?
How long it takes to get it out of our mind?
Perhaps it never will...because you means a lot to us and nothing could ever erase the fact so easily
after what the truth had befell us...
truth so hurtful that we have to miss you...unfortunately...

However...it is really a blessing to know that you are once a part of the family...
the example of someone so pure and innocent...that it opens up my eyes to see the beauty in life...
and it is a blessing to know that we are all with you till the end of the day
as we send you for a journey to heaven.
and last but not least... to know that, and be comforted with the fact that we will all reunited once again someday...

We love and miss you everyday...

In memory of you and you only...

Love always,
Yu

Sooner and Later

Soon enough, I will be doing another touch up of my report, which suppose to be submitted next Monday. It is indeed to my surprise and somewhat annoyance to know the fact that now I am getting more than the required words. Except that I was glad that I managed to get the information I needed which became the element of surprise in this whole process of editing =) SEXY!

And later, I will going to celebrate a birthday party (gyahahahahahaha) how nice...! time to be GLAMOROUS =D thus no matter what before the clock strikes 6 I have to make sure that the whole report is in on task and ready to be submitted asap.

Therefore, now, with only 3 hours to work on, I better make my move and talk to all of u soon enough haha there will be some things I would like to gladly share with all of you my dear bloggers haha and one of which is another tribute to the people I love who unfortunately, had to go too soon....

I miss you everyone...

Alright, gotta go...
take care now bye bye then

Love,
Yuliana Kasman

Count D

For the time being, Count D is feeling my mind.
The reason is, he is mysterious and that makes me love him =)
he is weird, but there is something interesting about his weird behavior. As he wore a beautiful embroidered cheong sam and bore an androgynous face, which often made him to be mistaken as woman, it really made me LOL.

I love the way he always appeared calm and mysterious...slightly creepy but cool haha and he always manage to get rid of the noisy man,for sure with his sarcastic calm smile...hehehe I wonder how long till I can meet him again...lol lol lol it is so fun...and i love the way he loves to eat sweet and have a craze for sweet tooth...
plus the fact to know that he is not a human haha

it is really nice reading about him haha


and even more fun to see his expressions


and even more fun when I know that i can always re read and re read him
haha

do I sound psychotic? haha yeah maybe the spirit of fandom lol



anyway, how i wish D is for real lol lol and how i want to visit his pet shop and play with his pets...hehe =)
and ohh one more thing, he is a friend of the dragon God how cool is that...woooh sexy can speak with animals..I love it... =) and now, time to present to u my best friend...this way please...lol





ps: for those of you who dont know and curious about my new friend, Count D, go to Kinokuniya bookstore and get yourself a copy of Pet Shop Of Horror comic book haha i tell u it is really fun =)

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh at last I can post pictures here again....
SWEET!!!!!
there are so many beautiful things I wanted to post in this blog and of cos one of it is the picture of my new "boyfriend" haha Mr. Count D damn quirky I love him haha
but anyway, been in some busy crazy hazy days that made me lost some of my beauty sleep. =(
But of course, glad to know that eventually those sucky days were over, well at least before it gets back to me again...which is going to happen what, next week? (arghhh) Never mind...

However, the good thing though, despite of all the business, I didn't lose my faith. Though there are times when it seems that I almost, let it slip out of my fingers like grains of sand, but I hold it back just in time before I lost it completely.
And I learned some things along the way as I hang on to my faith.

1. You always believe in Hope
2. You know that you are not alone, for God is with you
3. You feel peace within
4. You know you can do all things

Thus, bringing the faith with me once again I decided that I should put it first before all things. In fact during those nights when I spent my life alone in the cold room typing away my report, I realized that i fear nothing and peacefully able to type every word without worry.
Basically do the work according to the famous phrase everybody always said "Do the Best and let God do the rest" (which is good)

Anyway, these days when I was letting myself to rest, I'm glad that I really take time to enjoy myself before I get back to serious, busy mood again. =)

Okay, got to go...have some more things to post about see ya

take care now bye bye then =)

Buzzzyyyyy FOR A DEADLINE (PP submission)


In just a few more days, I will be able to let out a sigh of relief.
In just a few more days....
Been a damn busy moment these few days
Doing the 2000 words report which is like a disaster...moreover, when the damn laptop crash after I installed an anti-virus software. which is an irony.

been sometime I blogged. Actually there are some things I would like to blog, about what happened previously. However, I dont know what is wrong with the blogger, or perhaps I had accidentally pressed on something, now I was unable to upload my pictures again...
so bored now...because I was unable to show off some pics and make my blog more colourful.

Well, anyway, so far so good.
I managed to write up until 6oo plus words till this morning.
Huff really feels the craziness of staying a wake at night. it is really unusual to do that.
Lol being a really nocturnal animal, which is against my nature haha

Sometimes, it is really creepy when I heard some noises being produced in the middle of the night. Lol
luckily I was so damn busy, and thus, eventually my ears too had become slightly too immune to the environment, so I find myself feeling no sorts of discomfort or worst at times, too deaf to listen to the environment's voices because I was concentrating myself, reading scholars website and books that are so thick and at times too boring to read. hahaha

But the most creepiest noises I heard was the time when I was studying for my UT EXAMINATION, and there it was the sound in the middle of the night, around 3A.M. It sounded like someone is walking in front of my house and was rattling the metal gate softly, producing a clacking sound of the metals. You know, at first I don't even think about it, until it got slightly louder, and the cats added to the noises, as they had a cat fight, or mating, or I dont know, anyway, the whole sound just seems uneasy to hear, thus in the end, I decided, perhaps I should just get back to my room, and get some sleep. Lol. Before my imagination ran wilder haha.

Anyway, got to go.
Time to dashhhhhhh through the report again, and get my laptop fixed so that I dont need to make use of 2 laptops at one go...it is so troublesome.... x____________________________x

Peace,
Yuliana Kasman (Moondreamer)

BUZZYYYYYYYY

In just a few more days, I will be able to let out a sigh of relief.
In just a few more days....
Been a damn busy moment these few days
Doing the 2000 words report which is like a disaster...moreover, when the damn laptop crash after I installed an anti-virus software. which is an irony.

been sometime I blogged. Actually there are some things I would like to blog, about what happened previously. However, I dont know what is wrong with the blogger, or perhaps I had accidentally pressed on something, now I was unable to upload my pictures again...
so bored now...because I was unable to show off some pics and make my blog more colourful.

Well, anyway, so far so good.
I managed to write up until 6oo plus words till this morning.
Huff really feels the craziness of staying a wake at night. it is really unusual to do that.
Lol being a really nocturnal animal, which is against my nature haha

Sometimes, it is really creepy when I heard some noises being produced in the middle of the night. Lol
luckily I was so damn busy, and thus, eventually my ears too had become slightly too immune to the environment, so I find myself feeling no sorts of discomfort or worst at times, too deaf to listen to the environment's voices because I was concentrating myself, reading scholars website and books that are so thick and at times too boring to read. hahaha

But the most creepiest noises I heard was the time when I was studying for my UT EXAMINATION, and there it was the sound in the middle of the night, around 3A.M. It sounded like someone is walking in front of my house and was rattling the metal gate softly, producing a clacking sound of the metals. You know, at first I don't even think about it, until it got slightly louder, and the cats added to the noises, as they had a cat fight, or mating, or I dont know, anyway, the whole sound just seems uneasy to hear, thus in the end, I decided, perhaps I should just get back to my room, and get some sleep. Lol. Before my imagination ran wilder haha.

Anyway, got to go.
Time to dashhhhhhh through the report again, and get my laptop fixed so that I dont need to make use of 2 laptops at one go...it is so troublesome.... x____________________________x

Peace,
Yuliana Kasman (Moondreamer)