Tuesday

All the girls standing in the line for the bathroom
Was the phrase that emerges in my mind as I waited for the bathroom to be available
From my sis, to my aunt, till I don’t know whose it going to be next…
Anyway, time to have some fun crapping here…

First of all, there are good news and bad news for the day…
Shall we start with the good news?

The good news is I was able to find a good book, well I don’t know if it is too early to make a conclusion that it is a good book, but well, judging by the contents of the book, I think it should be kind of good. Anyway, don’t think I will be reading it today, or maybe I don’t know…
But all I know, I WANT TO BATH!!!!
I SO WANT TO BATH NOW!!!! feeling the warm water running through the dirty skin...
applying the sweet smelling soup on my dusty arm, scrubbing all the dirt of the day and the stresses all away and drained it all into the drain... NICE!!!!

Anyway, at last i managed to find a good book, and so is Atiqah. hehe she had been v very very paranoid bout finding a book...hahaha and today, thank God with the help of Florence, the friendly librarian that helped us a few weeks ago, i was able to learn more about book finding, and acknowledging the code of the books which haha is so alien to me...lol lol i never really borrowed books in the library haha because i prefer to read books slowly and so mostly i...opps....buy...or rent lol lol

But anyway, i managed to find it, and i was glad that i managed to find it haha

pause....off to bath

Back! so again, hahaha anyway, the book thing, i managed to get it, Atiqah managed to get it, Weiling happy that we finally managed to get over it, we decided to go home...hehe

Unfortunately, our dear lecturer, Nisar Keshvani had to say good bye to us today...we were very very shocked when he gave us an ice cream treat, and of course happy because it was such an unexpected treat, and thus, decided to make a guess of what is he up to, 'are u promoted', 'did you win 4D' were some of the guesses we made, till one of the them, if i was not mistaken it was the voice of Martin, and he said 'Don't tell me you we are going to change Faci' then our joy turns to sorrow. =s (though the ice cream is nice and cooling fir such a hot day though) But, well, after knowing the cool reason why he left us, we decided to give him our blessings...Nisar went to get his PHD at one of the university near Kanzastan.

Damn can u believe it? he is going to an exotic country for a PHD!!! how cool is that... wow...man....but too bad, the time we spent as a class were not long enough. hopefully we get to be taught by him once again somewhere, someday...

Another bad news is because i forgotten to wear my socks today, and my feet is crying out because of the shoe rubber that was rubbing my poor skin....

kyaaaaaaaaaaa its so damn damn painful that i got to struggle walking...

haiz...my poor feet...time to apply some medicine...alright time to go...hehe

soo happy i managed to find MR.SMALL AND MR.HAPPY today =) hehe further update on

7-11 hunting haha

take care now, bye bye then

PEACE

Yuliana Kasman

*live long and prosper (star trek sign )

Eyes

Today i woke up in the morning
and found my eyes getting worse than the day before.
It was very very itchy...and my helpless hands cant do anything to rub it off
because its gonna make things worse...
I didnt know what causes this little idiot to appear in the corner of my eyes...
but i guess ie because of all the dirty dusts that flew itself on me.
Or all the radiation that was hypnotising me ...damn it!
Time to concentrate in school and dont play too much facebook etc. etc. haha
and time to get some sleep...
haha
But well get a little sick, make me to realise the importance of a good health.
Time to rest... and take care of myself =)

And talking about sleep, i cant help to imagine sleeping in my comfortable bed at home haha
and sleep...it makes me happy thinking about sleep as this morning, after settling my struggle with my eyes and get back to get somemore sleep...haha
i dreamt of a good dream....
a good dream of walking in the rain with someone special haha
NICE!!!!
it was a romantic, well not really, but kinda sweet walk under the rhythmic shower....
so good....haha
how i wish i could dream of such a dream more often...and longer this time...

Been sometime since the last time i dreamt of something so good....haha


Dang...been busy all these while with all the upcoming talks...and fortunately it was all a good O'le talk...hope to see more good talks soon...hehe =) okay got to go

take care now, bye bye then

Love Always
Yuliana Kasman =)

SHOWER!!!

BRRRR!!!! BRRRR!!!! TARRRRRRRRR!!!!

is the sound of the heavy rain that we experienced just now as the rain hit itself happily on the earth surface, on RP's roof and people's head.

And one of the head was ME, Atiqah and Chow Weiling!!!! haha

The rain was hella bad just now that the three of us, thank goodness, it was the three of us...

thus 2 dollars each, we decided to take the cab to prevent the rain...haha and it was really really crazy! lol but anyway, we had fun a lot of fun fun fun after the boring talk haha

just as what they said it was 'BORING!' HAHA

But anyway, the torturous time at last is over and time for me to get some sleep now...

currently watching american idol, season finale...

haha and my comp is gonna be dead soon

gotta go

bye bye bye bye

Subway, foot long

Uhhhh so happy today is a holiday...and time for a relaxation...

Waking up this morning to the sound of the air-con that faithfully blowing its wind to cool the room, i feel hungry... hahaha and upon setting foot on the kitchen floor and realised that all that the table has is nothing but it's round and flat surface, i decided to make my way out of the house and have a grab of SUBWAY that was luring my mind.

So glad that i was alone to enjoy the food and to fill the hungry stomach with no worries, i decided to order the foot long sandwich and chewed on it slowly to the back of my throat. huahaha time to get fat!!!!

It's been some time ago since the last time i ate the foot long and the sensation of 'I DID IT!' is just so great...and continue to stick with me till the end of the meal haha love it when it's big.

Anyway, got to go...time to do some work before i really turn into a potato coach haha

stay happy =)

Media Media Media

As i undergo my first month 'training' as a Media/ Communication Student,
i realised a lot of things.
1. Writting is not as easy as what i thought previously.
2. Writting is indeed interesting
3. Comments are getting more and more interesting haha

Okay, so why did i said the above reasons.

First is because through Media Writting module i was exposed so much to the world of different techniques of writting and this alerted me on how am i going to structure my way of writting in the future....and honestly speaking, i really think that the first lesson and the last lesson is the most interesting thus far.
On the first lesson, i was glad to be taught the guidelines of gathering the broad informations through a conversation-on-a-phone-call technique which mesmerises me so much that i found myself liking the module almost in an instant. On the first day too, i was challenged to write a 400 words article as an individual works and haha frankly speaking, i really have a bad bad bad time in writting serious article and haha i was really having a difficult time writting out the draft. However, i managed to overcome it eventually...or at least for the time being...so ya, this technique i hope will help me further and can come in handy at times when i was lost in track.

Then today's lesson i was taught about the steps in writting and structuring of a newspaper article...sexy...i never thought that making a newspaper is going to be that hard... as in okay, i'm not that dumb i know it is not easy just that haha honestly speaking, i dont really spend time reading the colums and going through the important news etc. and today as i was faced with the analysing and justificating of a newspaper, i was like damn...how cool is the newspaper making actually. The 7 steps introduced about the Proximity, Timeliness, Impact etc etc. are also such an interesting facts to read about... =) very good.... haha and ohh i really like the idea that one of the team in class made about two different news being put up as the cover page but one news in the back of each other etc, yeah anyway, it is just so cool that for a moment i was brough to a more different angle of looking at a newspaper article... man.. i just love it when it challenged my stupid mind...lol because it made me appearing to be more clever...haha and more creative... lol thats the way baby like an art...i love it...

And speaking of arts, it will lead it's way to one of the most difficult module i have to learn, which to my surprise had eventually grab the whole of me haha and yeah, this module is called Communication Module, a module crafted and led by a smart *** who is nice and can also not be very nice sometimes... yeah anyway, this module as stated, is a communication module which helped in making us to think deep...really deep... as we were expose every week with different2 difficult and new issues about the world of media.

Out of the four module i had done i love Framing and Gatekeeping theory the most haha because again, haha it is like arts...baby whereby gatekeepers/ framers, basically the publisher's 'to be' are told to undergo a certain editting, and decision making process, called the Gatekeeping/ Agenda-setting process; and this point of time, is the moment where these artists are the one who has the power in deciding which informations to be included which is not, and which are the one that can be made to give a certain impact of priming ( where peope get influenced by the news and forced to think about it...haha way of psychoing people to believe in what we think is true...lol) and Just like the artist who want to give a certain topic that people will focus on and so that the surrounding noises be it physically or psychologically is not going to intrude itself there and create challenges, these selected informations are to be FRAMED! so that the topic is there on the face of the paper and so clear was it that people have nothing else to say but to get mesmerised by it...

Now u know why there are different section in the newspaper? haha different framing of content focus. and really haha despite of being forced to read a longggggggg reading list every week before we come to class, eventually i found that my frown about reading and understading this particular activity is turn to a nod in the head as i gained more informations each week and take it as part of the set meal i need to know; i found myself liking the idea of reading those things...haha though ya...can be kinda boring sometimes haha but ok lah, it is still a good read though lol.

Anyway, there are 2 other modules to go and well will tell u again about that soon...
well, for the time being i really think that as i mentioned writting may not be easy but it is indeed interesting as i learned more about it each day...how this silent words make a difference to the world as it was being revealed one by one...through different medium, verbal and non-verbal; as we learn more about the world as well.

Lastly for critics, haa yea it's not easy to accept critics, but without critics there wont be any improvement, so its a vice versa thing, thus it depends on how we see it...of course, not too perjudiced because it is not going to be very nice...and it will make people to be more demoralised that encouraged... so, anyway, hope that which ever way it is, there is a certain limitation involved so that we wont go overboard.

Okay, with that let me take my leave and give my poor body, soul and mind a break...

The time now is 12:55 a.m. local time
currently listening to my one and only favourite witty idol singing to his catchy song...
and nothing else but the sound of the night...

Okay than got to go...
take care now bye bye then

Love always,
Yuliana Kasman

*pardon me if there is any mis-information facts...well i am a human i make mistakes so please forgive me haha...and if you want to know more...(which i doubt) u can google it yourself ok...or go to this links: http://www.csun.edu/~rk33883/Framing%20Theory%20Lecture%20Ubertopic.htm
http://www.uncp.edu/home/acurtis/Courses/ResourcesForCourses/NewsValues.html (Tanks Sam for this)

Goodnight and bye bye bye bye

Dai Yang Tian!

Kyaaaaaa.......

Dai Yang Tian.....y are u always appearing not at the right moment...

grrrr....i am beginning to get somewhat irritated here...man...

everytime the distance is always so near and yet so far...i hate it...

the other time we were only a few metres away...

this time, we were only a few days away and a a flight away to meet...

and yet, the timing is again not right...

the other time he was on the phone...

this time, the school start to open EXACTLY on the time he was going to make his trip to Bali and i just made my trip back from Jakarta to Singapore for school...

Why Dai Dai ? Why? 为什么?

Haiz... i think we are just not fated man...

and i think to get near a handsome guy really got to go the hard way...haha

but anyway....never mind...let's wait some more for another day okay....

and next time Dai Yang Tian, you better make it a good date and a good day....lol

anyway, hope he enjoys the trip to Bali and hope he loves Indonesia....kyaaaaa happy.... wonder what made him to choose Indo...haha

anyway....ni bao zhong...and dont get drown please...lol

Your fans always

Yuliana Kasman =)

*Stay hot and peace with u =)

Street Music

Yesterday was Sunday...a very very good Sunday i've ever spent haha

and one of the reason is because there were a cool street performance going on in front of the Wheelock Place.

I was not a big fan of percussions, but what amazed me more was the way the played the catchy tune on the street with crowds gathering around clapping, cheering, dancing...wonderful!

i just love crowd at times like this....when everyone, regardless of race is hooked up into something that they love and everyone just enjoy the moment together, supporting and cheering for the performing team... =) Beautiful. Thats when peace come in place i suppose.

yeah...baby, apart from that, haha had a great sleep these days...after hard weeks of labour... =p

and i think i dreamt of a lot fo wonderful things =) happy....

Bought a sexy shorts and pants from Mango on Saturday...gee...time to have fun and be pretty...haha and yeah man...managed to grab down some great books off the shelves with a reasonable price to be true =D time to read...read read....haha

and 'Neverwhere' the book i am reading currently, is getting more and more wonderful to read...haha =) and i love so so much about the way he desribe certain unexpected words and expressions...BRAVO MAN!!! and i really want to be like that too... =)

No insperation currently =( saddened!!!

time to meditate!!! MEDITATE!!!

Ok, gtg

take care now bye bye then...

Peace

Yuliana Kasman =)

why is the day so slow...

why is the day so slow...

rather the week...

lol lol

im so not in the mood to do anything...

haiz...

i want to play... =)

and that i guess everyone is familiar with that 'banner' lol lol yeah well, it is the good thing that made me smile this morning after a bad fall off the staircase when i was on my way to the mrt station...damn it! my back hurts...

i was like sliding down five steps in a row....with people looking at me with a freaky eyes... =s

anyway, at last FRIDAY is here...man...today seems so slow...

and as we were so slacked today, we decided to do some monkey business in the classroom haha really had a great laugh people!!!!

Where is God when it Hurts?

Is the title of the book i am reading just a few hours ago.
It was written by the Priest, Ayub Yahya (from Indonesia) and i really think that the book really gives a good input about what to do in life when troubles strike.
I dont know what makes me wanted to read that book and picked it out of the shelves, but i know the same question does occur to me at times when troubles seems to come their way all at once at me.

Not that i am having some problem currently, dont get me wrong...
I am just as great as i am...a lazy human as always...haha
but there seems to be something about the title of the book that makes me wonder...
makes me curious to ponder upon the question that i have been questioning in my life sometimes.

Is God really went missing when troubles strike?
Well, i dont think so. In fact, He never goes away... just that sometimes when trouble strikes its way on me in all directions, I seems to be the one that were hiding myself away from Him. Thinking that i can do things out of His help. Other times, i feel that i was blinded by the obstacles that I am dealing with, that for a moment, the presence of God seems to be so difficult to see.
And of course the worst thing of all, i beginning to question His presence...which is not a good thing... =p

I wonder why is that ? But, well, i was glad to know that overtime i managed to cast that horrible question aside and try to look for the good things out of the bad as i brings all the things to prayers.

Overtime, sweet and sour through prayers, i began to understand God a little at a time.
I learned that His ways are beyond recognition. I learned that at times my will is not His will.
I learned that His power is beyond limit. And most of all, i learned that His love is beyond measure; and His faithfulness is beyond belief. In fact, there is nothing far more beautiful than having a conversation with God.

I'm glad to learn that after some time i managed to rejoice and even give thanks in times of trials...as He changed the sorrows into joy. Which is not an easy thing to walk through. But Thank God that after much prayers i managed to do all that... which sometimes I dont quite believe it that i was actually giving thanks about it all sometimes... and other times wonder, what had enabled me to say those words...but all i know, i did it. With the help of the Holy Spirit i did it.

I realised that when i gives thanks about all the things in my life, all things seems beautiful even when the reality is not as wonderful. I believe this is the beauty of Thank Giving.

Moreover, I realised that through my conversations with God, I am allowing myself to be changed as He moulds me into a better human everyday. =) and as i pray more, His faith remains in me.

And with faith, i managed to bring all the troubles i have in life to prayers...and with faith i walk.
For with God, i know nothing is too frightening to face. And in fact, at times of trials, it made me to realise even better that i need Him more than anyone else i ever know. And this, allows me to learn that God is never too far away from me.

I just hope that the faith remains in me all the time...and this attitude of optimism comes to rescue each time the pessimistic mind is about to take control. =)

So where is God when it hurts?

My answer will be 'He is here always in everyone's heart.'

And there is no sufferings too great that a man cannot handle, because He is faithful and in times of trials He will not let you be tempted beyond your abilities, instead, in times of trials, will also provide a way out so that you can stand up against it. (1 Corinthians 10:13)

Therefore, stop blaming yourself or God when troubles strike, for it is part of life. And it is bound to happen as long as we are still alive, so that we are becoming strong each day.

In fact at times of trials, instead of questioning 'where are you God' maybe what we should do is to kneel down before Him and called out His name, for He is never too far away from each and everyone of us nor is He too late for the rescue.

I pray that the peace of the Lord is with You always and His spirits remains in each and everyone of us as we carry on with our lives everyday =)

With Love always,
Yuliana Kasman

Rush Hour

These few days i have been in a rush to get all the things i need to do.
Iknow it's not a good thing, but the problem is, the time conscious is killing me softly
with the running of time that just move on mercilessly, without even waiting for me to get things done... damn...

However, i am just more than glad that eventually i managed to put it all under control, because previously, my mind had been in a mist of thin air, and i am so confused that i dont know what to do. But now that all the things are slowly revealing itself on me, i am beginning to feel a little at ease. =)

At last, tomorrow is the BIG DAY !!!
the BIG PARTY that everyone has been waiting for and had been busy preparing for.
and just in time, before everything comes crumbling down, i manage to get the PP project scope done too. not really done as in finish, but at least i managed to get something out of the confussion...and glad that after much reseacrhing, i manage to gain an insgiht of the ideas for me to focus on...
just hope that i was approved this time... again

Tomorrow, is Michelle Chia's wedding.
and i am going to be one of the invited guess in the guess list... =) ahh happy...
but now i wonder if i will be able to get a shot with some of the celebrities...lol
and even if i cant, i hope i can at least, take a pic with Mr. Dai Yang Tian... =)

but haiz....asking a request from him means, i have to let out my rusty Chinese to communicate with him...haha i just hope i am not going to disgrace myself... =)
i wonder how will the celebration going to be...
i hope it's gonna be FUN...
and i hope it can make me release out all the stresses that i have been feeling these days...
as i have fun...seeing Dai Yang Tian...and the rest of the artists..
haha.

PP...ermm....annoying...
i hate it...
i just wish that after all the project scope thingy is over, i can get myself sometime to relax before i work like a horse again...

Man, this is the first time i felt so rush and so busy that i dont even have the time to complain that i am tired...no time to break down and cry either...
well, i guess i have to follow what P said as dont plan anything....
let it come naturally....
but i wonder if that will work on me...
i hope it does...

i am really excited of what is going to happen tomorrow..
oh man man...
and the idea that tomorrow i will be in a nice dress HAPPY!!!!
that's what a girl should do man...
GET BEAUTIFUL!!!
and i really hope to see Dai Yang Tian...
gotta be early tomorrow...

Anyway, today is Mothers Day
have you bought anything for your mom people?

well, got to go, have fun with ur mama

take care now, bye bye then

God bless you

* God, thank You for helping me to go through all the toughness in life...

Love always,
Me =)

morning

Waking up in the morning is a pain to my eyes and body.

however, with all these beautiful sceneries in the morning, it made all the difficult get out of bed symtoms worth it.

Thus, let me gives you the pleasure of enjoying the beautiful sceneries in the morning.

First of all, is these beautiful clouds that seemingly falling apart itself to reveal the morning sky

i really like the effect that the lights are outcasting the rest of the environment and making it appear to look like silhouette, sexy!

Next is the bright shining sun i saw a few minutes before getting out of my house to the bus stop. it was on the same day by the way. and being able to snap this wonderfu morning sun, it made me so happy... how i wish i could use DSLR to snap it...i think it will be even better... nice yellow-orange colour of the rays...

it was really a wonderful feeling to witness the beauty of nature despite of the hectic schedule...

and all these reminds me of the blessings that He gives us everyday, which we should never take for granted of.

got to go

lesson is starting soon....more post on the evening sky.

take care now, bye bye then

God bless you

love,

me =)

Citing

Ever since i was introduced to the world of reference, i found myself liking to reference everything that i am writting about, of course, unless it is originally created by me. =p
but the idea of finding the good citation, (sigh) it's just not my cup of tea.
i dont know why but i found myself unable to make a good reference every time i need to make one...
haha as a result, when i managed to find one and understand the whole content, i will be more than satisfied... =)

the time now is 11:30 p.m. time to sleep soon...
have not been sleeping well these days, and i found myself dozing away several times in the class.
just now, i was fortunate enough to get an hour of sleep, despite of my gonna-be-busy life, and frankly speaking, that precious one hour is not enough for a lazy human like me. unfortunately.

but i feel that the busy life that i am going to lead soon, is a challenge for me to wake up and get my butt off the bed and start making a move.
so many things i have to do.
first i have to learn to know how to research and ensure that i can search it well enough.
and second to make sure that i understand what the hell is going on.

i'm glad to announce that i was able to understand the reading list i am reading about today.
it's about gatekeeping theory
do u heard of it before?
well, basically it is a way used in the communication theory, to identify the good informations and the bad informations. and the gatekeeper and gated is simply the sender and receiver of the information.

there are 2 types of gatekeeping, one is the traditional gatekeeper another one is the NGT or net gatekeeping theory, which is using the internet, or the type of things that we undergo everday. and in the past, the gatekeeper is the seemingly only key factor that provides all the informations that are going to be published out to the gated audience. thus, the gated, have not much opportunities in voicing out their own views, however, with the coming of NGT, both the gated and gatekeepers are able to play a role in providing and voicing out their opinions.

but the bad thing is, sometimes, the gated who is not so much in contact with the broad exposure that the gatekeeper is facing, will tend to maybe let out certain informations that the gatekeepers does not intend to share it to the world, furthermore, with their limited accession with the information resources, it is not going to be a good idea if the public buy their stories. that's why sometimes some informations are being censored. and one of the reason is so as not to panic the public.

but anyway, this case thingy is somewhat similar to media news in the internet, that i read about, about 2 weeks ago, something like, because there are things like internet newspaper, therefore, some people are being misled because some of the news are not edited and not properly written.
and thus, haha i think that is the reason why we are taught to make citation and realiable research.
so that people will believe what we said...
haha

anyway, i'm sorry if i didnt cite the reference to all the gatekeeper thingy that i wrote here, because it was given by my lecture and i dont know if he allows me to share it to the world..haaa
so i think i better keep it a secret...of course if you wan to know more, which i doubt so... haha search about it yourself in the internet okay... =p

damn baby, i'm so tired...
and i'm so lost about my PP which is like a disaster...haha
but luckily i managed to get a good result for the past few modules that i undergone...
haha
cant wait to see Steven on Monday...lol time to give him more craps which i dont know if i am going to do so or not...haha well pardon me, i am a confused kid...though i am not emo ya...haha really i am not...just a little slow in the brain lol so just give me sometime to rethink about what i want to do and i will be fine...haha

okay, now, the time is 11:51
time to talk to God, time to meet Mr. tall in a dream, time to sleep

take care now bye bye then

peace and love
Yuliana

Thermometer

today is a hell out of a day...
when i have to run around the mall searching for a pathetic thermometer...
oh my gowd....
every where i go, whenever i asked the sales person about thermometer, they said 'out of stock', 'out of stock', 'out of stock'

DAMN!!!!

i was like, what the hell is wrong with the stores?
ohh my gowd....
i think this is what likely to happen when demand is rising up but the stock is going down...
and everyone is like going haywire searching for it...
including me...

i was so desperate for one that i even went to a baby store to look for one...
but suddenly, a thought slide past me
and i think i have one, if i dont remember wrongly at home...
and Thank God, it does have...

if not i will be a DAMN tomorrow....
haiz...
but anyway...
it's good that i managed to get it...

but yesterday was a great thing because i managed to find a lot of books in borders shelves =)
and now that my english is a lot better than before...
i am so =) i can understand all those books...
like Jane Austen's 'Sense and sensibility' , Harper Lee's ' To kill a mocking bird' and even Paulo Coelho stories...though yesterday i was just glancing through it...but the opening was good...
and i love literature...
it's been sometimes since the last time i read a literature book...and i miss it terribly...
the idea of analysing a prose and quoting all those lines from the text...
damn...i miss those feelings... =) and i love it... =)

anyway..due to that...and the idea that there are so many nice books to be read...
haha i decided to make a reading lists... of my own...
haha i wish that just like before, i can finish a book during my holidays and so in a year i can finish at least 4-5 books (if possible) in a year...haha
and i think by that time, my insperation will start to flow again...

haiz currently my mind is a piece of blank paper...
i have no insperation whatsoever...
and i dont know what to write.

anyway, got to go...
the time now is 11:26
better be off and get my self ready for tomorrow...
haiz...monday...why it has to come so soon...

take care now, bye bye then

stay happy. stay save. stay cool.
sweet dreams people

love always,
me =)