Ohana

"Ohana means family, family means no one was left behind"

Lilo and Stitch

There's nothing i could write here...it seems that the day i heard about the bad news that shocked my life, my world seems to spin like a roller coaster...everything seems so fast and so hard to catch up with, however, the time seems to move so slowly...
i can accept the facts yes, i can, and i know no matter how hard we cried, he just wont be here with us, and i know that God is with him as well as with us. but sometimes, i wonder, how long will it take for us to meet again. i dont mean to go so soon, but still, the idea that the member of the family is gone...and the idea that someone is missing in all the family occassions is just so hard to feel.

how i wish the time we had together was not that fast and short. i guess, sometimes things arent always that great when it is "short and simple " or "short and sweet" it does not come up to be that "sweet" after all. huff...i dont know either why am i writing all these, but well, i just cant take it....my heart seems like burdened with something. something that i cant quite figure it out. i wanted to write it in a story, but, my mind was blocked and blank that i cant think of any words to descript it...i wish to write a great story about him. about us. in fact everything about him was great, because he was just too perfect for the world. he was the model that God wants us to be. pure and innocent. humble... and hold no begrudge against anything. even when things seems to attack him in every way, he stays faithful and obedient. he stays positive. i guess is because he was just so perfect and because God loves him so much, that He wants him back to His kingdom. Because he had done enough, because he just not fit to be in this cruel world. And God knows that heaven is just the perfect place for him.

i want to write...i want to write something about him. him and us. but maybe i need some time, some time to sort things out, clear my mind and think carefully about it. because it has to be well written, just like the other stories i did. or rather it has to be even better. i planned the plot already, but there's still something missing in it... wish as time past, i can fill up those holes in the middle of the sentences. or i think i have to change the whole plot all over again.

now one thing i wish for is just for nothing to ever happen to our family again. no more...no more deaths. two loss is enough. all of us, which used to be 26 altogether, had become 24 now...its getting lesser..and it's just unpleasant to believe. and i wished that all of us can gather together as often as possible. even though we are far apart. and i wish no one is left behind. i wish no one is ever so far, or so fast for us to reach out for them.

because we are family; and family means no one was left behind.