Isabella

A Day in the Life of Isabella Surya

12:15p.m.

Isabella stopped to catch her breath.
The bride turned to look at the long road she had covered for the past fifteen minutes. She wondered if she was far enough for them to find her, then as she breathes in as much air as possible the beautiful girl began to cry.

“I could not do this. I should have never done this.” She thought to herself as she walked past the sea of people who was staring at her with knitted brows, but she could not care less. “If only…if only I could just turn back the time and undo all the things I’ve done” Isabella thought to herself, unfortunately it was too late for her to regret now that things had come these far.

For a moment, her biggest dream of marrying the guy she loves the most seems to have vanish to thin air and her happiness had turned to sorrow and shame. ‘I can’t tell him, neither can I face him now. I should have never done this. Never. Why didn’t I realize it in the first place? Why didn’t I grab hold of myself from falling in love with him…why…” the questions of what and why lingered in her head, making her sick.

As she walked in her confused state of mind, the twenty nine years old, began to trace back all the things she had done and the day it all started.


It all started when the make-up artist, who had just finish her work for the day was making her way to the parking lot, when she saw the man she had longed admired. Joko was walking towards her direction with a luggage in one hand and a cell phone on the other. In his business suit, Joko looks even more charming than Isabella remembered him to be.

The make-up artist fixed her gaze on him as he made his way past her without even taking a few seconds in return to her gaze. He was a very busy man, even after office hour, he was often wanted to carry out an important task to one place or another and thus he had to always make sure that his cell phone is available at all time.

Isabella turned to look at the man who continued walking and felt disappointed for making herself looks so desperate for him. “its okay, even if he sees me, he may not be able to recognize me either” she said to herself sadly. “If only he knows that I have go all these far in order for him to notice me. The beautiful side of me.” Isabella wished with all her might.

Her wish comes true however, when the business man appeared in her studio one day.
“What can I do for you sir?” she asked as calmly as possible.
“Are you the boss here?” Joko asked politely as he handed her his name card. “It’s really cool. Your studio, I really love it. Are you a photographer?” he asked looking at her straight in the eyes.

His unexpected stare almost made her to lose her cool “No. I’m…I’m the make-up artist. The photographer is at the second storey, if you would like to meet him” she said facing away from him to hide the nervousness.

“No, it’s okay, I was just passing by, maybe I will come back later, if my work is not holding me back. Just want to have a few words with the photographer about some photo taking schedule but anyway, I got to go. Please tell him that I’m looking for him. Thank you.”
The tall man made a quick exit the moment he finished his sentences and soon, his figure seems to have faded among the crowds.


1:30 p.m.

Isabella ran her hand over the beautifully designed gown. The gown she had chose especially for him and wondered what she should do with the gown now. “It would probably become a trash in the closet” she thought to herself, though some part of her, hoping that she could do something better to it.

Just then, as she pulled up the long gown to make herself easier to move, she realized that she had not worn the heels she bought for the occasion. Instead, she was wearing an old slipper that she had brought from the studio.

It was then that she knew they were never intended to be one, despite of the fate that had twined its way around them. “I knew it, except that I never know it will end this way” she said to herself, bitterly.

After their several meeting up, the two eventually found themselves attracted with one another. For a moment Joko seems to have found himself a good friend who understands him inside out and that makes him happy.

All these while, ever since the missing of his best pal, Ian who was believed to have lost his life in an airplane accident, Joko had turned himself into a completely different person. He has no time for family, no time for friends, no time for other interest except for his work. His work seems to be the only source of comfort for him, for as long as he was occupied with so many things in mind, it will gives him no time to think about the ugly truth that his friend was no longer alive.

Thus, after committing themselves to one another, they decided to tie the knot.
Unfortunately, what Joko never knew was, putting aside the outer appearance of his bride to be, was the man he was grieving for.

It was of Ian’s request that the hospital made an agreement to call and informed Joko that his best friend was pronounced dead, when he decided to make a change of himself into the woman she is now, which happened to be the day the airplane crash. Thus, the man decided to make that as a false testimony to tell his friend, so that he will not come searching for him during the time he was undergoing the makeover.

Ian had always admired his friend Joko, but little did he knows that it soon turned out to be an addiction, then an obsession which eventually controlling his mind to look at him more as a lover than a friend. Ian had wondered in his corrupted mind what would make Joko notice him, the beautiful side of him, the side of him, who loves to paint his nails instead of fixing the computer, the side of him, who loves bubble bath instead of muddy rain. And this desire of wanting to make his friend to notice him, made him to go the extra mile as to turn himself into a new creature beyond the law of nature. All these he did it for the sake of love from the one man he wishes to be with.
Unfortunately, as the days passed by and the day of the occasion is getting near, Isabella was filled with fears; the fear of shame, the fear of disappointment, the fear of being out casted, the fear of insanity, and most of all the fear of hate.

Thus, knowing that she would not be able to carry on with her life as freely as she wanted it to be, she decided to give up her love for him.

8:00 P.M.

Isabella looked at the stars that shine above her and wondered how to live her life once again. Mixtures of feelings had clouded her broken heart.
She thinks back of the days she spent with Joko as a friend and as a lover, and she felt that it was all useless, for she had fulfilled nothing in the end. She may have his love, but she had failed to buy his trust and future. He may have his trust but he had failed to attract his attention.
Confused as she already is, Isabella wondered what she could do to bury it all…

Meanwhile, in the silence of the church, a man sat with drooped shoulders. He looked at the picture his bride had left for him, it was the picture of him and his dead friend, Ian, and wondered; why he didn’t realize it earlier…maybe he would have saved him.